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The Caffinated Lurker Girl  

Back from the dead

Journal Entry: Sun May 4, 2008, 9:21 AM
Family:
:icononnaevilsmith: :iconx-chick: :icontomeka04:
:iconfarellemoon: :iconbonniebon: :iconxandria-tchebbi: :iconatashka:

Friends:
:iconkatakuscythe: :iconanbukakashi1: :iconnatsuki-3: :icondoomhobbit:
:iconzemotion: :iconmica87: :iconkittydew:

My clubs
:iconranmaartists: :iconcustomlpvalley: :iconfop-oc-fans:
:iconsesskag: :iconunico-fans:

Are you my love?
:icononnaevilsmith: :iconkatakuscythe: :icondoomhobbit: :iconivorytuesdays: :iconanbukakashi1: :icongimmetokyo:

Fear not the world and its fears
for its fears are only as scary as you believe them to be.
So look forward and hold your head up high.
Believe that not everyone is the same and that simmilarity is only a mild form of change.
That change is good and if nothing changes then it will be my love! The sky is as boundless and unpredictable as the future; never the same twice.

AHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAAHAHAHHA
I'm back bitches!
*thumbs up*

Hey! I'm back and dont worry everyone.
I'm so happy about the world right now.
Everything seems to be falling back into place and I'm so excited for the next step.

Thank you....
everyone thank you for the watches and the favs the comments and the love! I feel it all and it gives me support. Thank you all for everything you've done for me. the depths of my appreciation knows no bounds.
You are all wonderful friends!

Welp this is da Tuesday signing off.
Hope you all have a lovely day.
Love
Da Tuesday

  • Mood: Obsessed
  • Listening to: Twilight
  • Reading: Modern tales of Farie
  • Watching: Youtube
  • Playing: Crisis core
  • Eating: pizza
  • Drinking: Irish Monster!!!!!!

Not Myself

Journal Entry: Mon Apr 14, 2008, 8:50 PM
Family:
:icononnaevilsmith: :iconx-chick: :icontomeka04:
:iconfarellemoon: :iconbonniebon: :iconxandria-tchebbi: :iconatashka:

Friends:
:iconkatakuscythe: :iconanbukakashi1: :iconnatsuki-3:
:iconzemotion: :iconmica87: :iconkittydew:

My clubs
:iconranmaartists: :iconcustomlpvalley: :iconfop-oc-fans:
:iconsesskag: :iconunico-fans:


Hey everyone.....

I'm really not myself.....
..... I really dont know how to explain it.
I went back to montana last week rather unexpectedly.
I didnt tell many people though I realized how many missed my absence.
It was my grandmothers 87th birthday and..... She's dieing..... any moment now and it hadent dawned on me the sevarity till I saw her....

If anyone's ever had some one like a mother, sister, lover, teacher...... anyone that had been there thier entire life. One that had seen you at your weakest and rather then be angry or tell you to suck it up had shown nothing but understnading and comfert then you understand.

Its not like when a pet dies, its not that kind of hollowness.
Its as if ...... I'm dead......

Like I myself am no longer living and I myself will never breathe agian.
My chest hurts..... I'm drowning and I watch as I hoplessly reach for air as it seeps through straining fingertips.

Its not fair cause I'm already a bleeding heart and even now my heart seeps blood that I lack seeing myself gaining the capability of pulling me out anytime soon.

But the entire reason I'm writing this rather then just calling or texting those that this concernes I'm...... not being social. And I do feel really really bad for those I know here that I could have easly seen in montana to all those people.

I'm sorry.....
I'm so sorry....
I'M SO SO SO SO SORRRY!!
I KNOW.... I know I should have done more to see you but ......
It hurts..... it hurts...... I'm so sorry

This isent usually like me...... I'm sorry....
Usually I try to always be seen with a smile on my face and a laugh in my voice. But with all the things going on in my life and all the problems I'm having right now..... I feel like dieing myself.

But even though I'm like this I have yet to give up and despite the great preassure pushing in on me I refuse to allow myself to fall.... Even if I'm pushed to my knees I will never eat dirt.....

So please bare with me for now....
I really truly love you all.....
The humble Tuesday.

  • Mood: Miserable
  • Listening to: Tears onmy pillow
  • Reading: nothing
  • Watching: nothing
  • Playing: Crisis core
  • Eating: nothing
  • Drinking: tea

Devious Journal Entry

Journal Entry: Sun Mar 30, 2008, 11:30 AM
Family:
:icononnaevilsmith: :iconx-chick: :icontomeka04:
:iconfarellemoon: :iconbonniebon: :iconxandria-tchebbi: :iconatashka:

Friends:
:iconkatakuscythe: :iconanbukakashi1: :iconnatsuki-3:
:iconzemotion:

My clubs
:iconranmaartists: :iconcustomlpvalley: :iconfop-oc-fans:
:iconsesskag: :iconunico-fans:

Hey everyone
Tues here!
HEEAAAAAYYY
Whatsup?
schools starting back up again and I'm totally pumped fer it.....
maybe not the 3D stuff but hey I'll still do my best ^-^
Hey I have some actual friends on da that I actually dont know in rl now! Yay me!
I'm a bit of an unsocial butterfly so making friends isent always the easiest thing fer me to do but yeah.

Hope you all had a great Easter! Saw family, enjoyed some friends and had some fun.
WEll this is gonna be short but I did want to ask if anyone would be intrested in seeing anything particular from me.
I love a good challange.
Oh! and another thing:
:iconi-dont-hate-you:
THIS person has given me thier first real critique. not a bash or complaining or a know it all telling me I'm wrong.

To this person I give my sincerest gratitude.
to give critique means to put yourself in a very verry pressured and uneasing position. And for this person to HAVE to create a seperate account just to be able to HELP people grow is a crime.

For everyone who comes to see me I want to express this.
Critique is a tool REAL artists use to become great no one artist known to the world is where they are without critique.
Critique comes in thousends of forms and if you cant seem to push down your pride enough to accept an honest critique (even if you never use it) Then look at it as advice then as a personal trashing. Because advece like these, wether from a stranger or a close friend is invaluble and I appreciate all advice even if I end up crying from it it will not go unappreciated. And that goes to even my closest of closest friends as well as myself. When i sound harsh or giving my honest oppinion its not to be a bitch its honestly to make the person better. So that they can make it to the place they dream of........

Oh my oh my that tended to be a bit more then normal.
But I wanted to get it off my chest. I work hard but that dosent mean I'm the best...... just means I keep moving forward.

Love you all
Tues.

  • Mood: Affection
  • Listening to: USB Mix
  • Reading: nothing
  • Watching: Avatar
  • Playing: Lunar Dragon Song
  • Eating: pizza
  • Drinking: tea

Devious Journal Entry

Journal Entry: Sun Mar 2, 2008, 4:43 PM
Reach outs:
:iconnoiry: :iconzeiva: :iconshirotsuki:

So go check em out!


AIC Family:

:icontomeka04: :iconx-chick: :icononnaevilsmith:
:iconfarellemoon: :iconbonniebon: :iconxandria-tchebbi: :iconatashka:

Clubs I'm in:

:iconranmaartists: :iconcustomlpvalley: :iconfop-oc-fans:
:iconsesskag: :iconunico-fans:


Hey everyone!
I'm sure you've all been curious about what I've been up to.
well schools been keeping me running ragged but even though I'm tired I almost wish there where more hours in the day so I can get all the things I want to get done done.
Maybe I'll grow a few more hands then I'll catch up ^.^
But for the most part the world seems to be working itself back into a type of rythem from all the stress and death and problems lately.

SOOOOOOoooooo I'm trying to get an internship soon so pray for me for that ^.^
HAHAHAAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA Thats right, I'm going to be an aunty! My brothers baby is due the 21st of September this year. Crazy huh? I feel so old! XD considering I'm only gunna be 23 three days before!

Well thats about it. I cant think of much more other then I'm honored by those of you that watch or come to see me. I'm noticing greater and greater artists are watching ME!
:Me: ME!??!!?!?!?!!?!?!??
Yeah so thanks to all of you for it and I'll see about having some fun in the next month or two.

  • Mood: Eager
  • Listening to: USB Mix
  • Reading: nothing
  • Watching: Avatar
  • Playing: Lunar Dragon Song
  • Eating: pizza
  • Drinking: tea

Back

Journal Entry: Sat Dec 29, 2007, 7:25 AM
Promotionals:
People I'm promoting cause I think there absolutely wonderful:
none this time, too busy with other things. Sorry everyone

Family:
:icontomeka04: :icononnaevilsmith:
:iconbonniebon: :iconxandria-tchebbi:
:iconkatakuscythe: :iconwithout-definition: :iconmica87:
:iconx-chick: :iconfarellemoon: :iconatashka: :iconsattish:

Clubs:
:iconranmaartists: :iconcustomlpvalley:
:iconfop-oc-fans: :iconsesskag:
:iconunico-fans: :iconclubinuyasha:
:iconfullmetalpanicclub: :iconrainbow-land:
:iconthattime:

Hey everyone tuesday here
I finally got back from heading down to Montana for Christmas and I'm exhausted. Going back is always more of an event then a vacation. But I'm back now and hope to be putting up some new charactors for you all to see.

Magnus: That'd be me all ya Bitc'es!!

*shoves Magnus*

Azriel: Your insane she's talking about me!

watches as the two duke it out*
There both part of it. So ..... -.-;; Yesh yesh all in due time.
But for now I'm still working things out at home and situating myself into my mode again.
But I hope you all had a wonderful christmas.
I'm sorry if I wished everyone a happy christmas late, I had little time.
And from all those who where unfortunate not to get one

MERRY CHRISTMAS
*huggles


Well thats alll from your friendly neighborhood Tuesday
Hope you all had a wonderful holiday and I'll see you later

Love da Tuesday

  • Mood: Compassion
  • Listening to: Lovely- Michelle Tumes
  • Watching: Hands of Time (my anime work within my mind)
  • Playing: Final Fantacy Tacticts
  • Eating: pizza
  • Drinking: Coco